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5/1

Pray for my friend Chanda...

She's the one I told you all about a while back. My friend who used to work here at WSB-TV as a producer.

Well, I found out late yesterday afternoon that she was out of town, had to be rushed back to Atlanta for emergency surgery then later went to Duke where she had her brain tumor removed.

I don't have all the details right now, but it seems that there was a blood clot that needed to be removed immediately. I prayed a great deal yesterday and this morning.

I also learned another friend of my died late Tuesday night. So, let's just say Wednesday wasn't a fun day.

I'm always reminded about how short life is. I'm always reminded about the challenges that I face along with other people, and it's difficult sometimes.

I live with the thought of death everyday now. Don't misunderstand, I don't wake up and it's the first thing on my mind, but I realize that's nothing is promised to me. NOTHING!

So, that's why I always stress to you to LOVE, LIVE LIFE!!

Today is no different. I'm not having the best morning my spirits are a little down, but I'm going to will this into a WONDERFUL Day because I'm alive and I'm here. I feel good, even though emotionally I'm not at a 10!!!!!!

But, NO MATTER WHAT.. it's a GREAT DAY...

Much love...

LOVE, LIVE LIFE!!

JaQuitta!

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4/29

Hey there Everyone...

I haven't checked in in so long I'm a little embarrassed, but I have a good excuse, my schedule has been packed.

I'm back at work full swing.

I'm finally feeling as close to 100 percent as I can get.

I still read your emails to me, and they make me feel like a million bucks! THANK YOU!!

I always find it incredible sometimes when people comment on my hair. I get questions like who cut it, who maintains it, what salon or stylist do you go to. I think it's a hoot because I haven't been to a salon or a stylist since before my hair started coming out because of the chemo.

So, I'm always so very flattered that people think it looks *that* good when I simply wash and go.

I do really like this product called Miss Jessie's Curly Buttercream---Monica Pearson and a few other people told me about it. Monica bought me my first bottle of it. I was hooked on it.

I used to get it online until I found a salon that specializes in natural hair, and sells the product here in Atlanta. The name of the salon is Urbanbella if you ever want to check them out you can visit them online www.urbanbella.com or drop by the salon off of Roswell Road. You can also visit Miss Jessie's website and there you can find other locations in Atlanta that sell it. It smells good, and it makes your scalp tingle too.

More great news... I'M LOSING THE WEIGHT I PUT ON BECAUSE OF MY CHEMO MEDS...YEA!!!

Can you tell I'm excited? I've dropped about 10 pounds. I still have 20 more to go, and it definitely does not come off as easily as it used to. I have to fight for every pound, but I'm not complaining. It feels wonderful to feel good, and up for the work outs and back to running. I can get into my clothes too. YEA!!!!

I'm so happy to be alive everyday, and feeling better! Please don't take that for granted, it truly is a gift--a blessing.

I can't believe that in a few months it will be the anniversary of my cancer diagnosis. It will be a year in July. Can you believe that? I can't.

I'm looking forward to the upcoming walks/runs to benefit cancer research.

One last thing; I still have moments when I have mini breakdowns. Sometimes I'm crying because I'm so grateful, and sometimes it's because I can't believe what I've gone through and how my life has changed FOR THE BETTER!

I cry for the women who are recently diagnosed and how afraid they are because I know exactly how that feels.

Sometimes I cry when I see pictures of when I was undergoing chemo, or when I run into the hospital folks who helped me along the way.

I'm reminded of the way I felt, the way the room looked or smelled. It comes back like it was yesterday sometimes.

I'm grateful for all of it though because the scars I bear are the signs of a competitor!

Much love to you...

Love, Live Life!

JaQuitta

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2/26

Hey There!

I wanted to update you on what's been going on with me lately.

I have finally gotten adjusted to my new look and new super short hair. Everyone has been so kind about the new look. The compliments are so very flattering. I thank you very, very much. I love it too! It's soooooo easy... I wash it and go. I spray a leave in conditioner on it, and then I apply this butter cream called Miss Jessie's Curly Butter cream in my hair that Monica Pearson gave me and I'm out the door. I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! The butter cream smells WONDERFUL, and it locks in my curls. I had heard about Miss Jessie's products before, but never tried them until Monica bought some for me. Now, I'm hooked and wanted to tell you about it as well. Thanks Monica!

I have had quite a few people who have asked who my hairstylist is now that I have this new look. It's funny because I don't have a hairstylist now, my hair is simply growing back and this is how it's growing in. Actually this is how my hair was before I started getting relaxers. Just a lot longer, you'll see what I mean as I continue to let it grow. Before though, I never even thought about a relaxer until I went to college and saw all these beautiful young ladies with flowing hair, that blew in the wind, my hair never moved because it was thick and curly. So, I decided a perm was for me. My mother wasn't really happy with that decision, but she allowed it. Now, I never want a relaxer again. I love my hair as it is, natural and curly. This is me, and I'm learning how to embrace the new JaQuitta. I like her, no, I love her. Oh, and did I tell you that I am in love with the money I DON’T have to spend running to the beauty salon every week. WHOO-HOOO!!!

I did an interview on Monday with Renee Miller from 107.5 about what happened to me. I'll let you know when it airs in case you guys want to hear it.

Before I go, please please pray for my friend Chanda Taylor. Chanda has a brain tumor. Chanda and I were having radiation right around the same time, we also used to work together at WSB--she's now at CNN. Anyway, we were all praying that the tumor would shrink after radiation was over. It didn't. Now, she will have to have surgery. So, I hope that you will join me in praying for her. She's such a fighter, and I know she's going to do well. I just want her to have all the prayers she can get. If you'd like to know more about Chanda, she has a blog too, feel free to visit it and read her story. http://my-brain-blog.blogspot.com. Thank you for rooting for me, supporting me.

I'm working on writing a book. Would you want to read it?

Okay, I'm going to stop right here.

Love, Live Life.

JaQuitta!

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2/15

Hey Everybody!

It's been a long while since I've written an entry. So, let me get you all updated!

I am finally finished with radiation. My last treatment was Feb. 5th!!!! I was sooo happy I didn't know what to do. No more heading to the hospital EVERYDAY! It lasted for 6 weeks and near the end it began to wear me out. I was exhausted, especially since I was getting treatments and then heading to work. It was hard, but I got through it. I will admit that I miss the folks over there who took such great care of me.

The next huge achievment : I stopped wearing my wig!!! I was in the make-up room with my co-anchor John Bachman last weekend and I was brushing the wig out getting ready to curl it, I just stopped and mentioned to him that I just didn't want to wear it anymore. I was sick of it. John said “Well, don't wear it. I think you look great, and if you don't want to wear it anymore then stop.”

His words were so supportive and so kind and sincere. I decided ya know what, he's right. I'm not wearing it anymore. I thought that I would be a distraction by not wearing it, and people would focus on my hair. I couldn't have been more wrong. So many people have been incredibly supportive of what I've been through and the "new look." I'm glad to be rid of the wig. I'm glad to have my hair sprouting back, and I love that it's sooo low maintenance.

The weight is still coming off, SLOWLY, but at least it's coming off.

I still get very tired even though the radiation is over. Doctors warned that I would still feel the effects 2 months after radiation was over. They're right.

I think that's all for the update. I can't remember anything else I guess I should say.

Oh, one last thing. I was in a fashion show just recently. Iman, the world famous model was being honored. SHE'S BEAUTIFUL!!!! Anyway, I felt like a million bucks!

okay, gotta run...

Love, Live Life

JaQuitta!

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1/29

Hey there!

I thought I'd write a quick blog before taking my 3 to 4 hour nap.

Radiation has finally kicked in and it makes me incredibly tired. The doctors mentioned fatigue, and I'm experiencing it.

To bottom line it: I feel tired the majority of the time. However, I only have a few days left before it's all over. The countdown is on! The only side note is that doctors have warned me that even though the radiation will be over in a few days, I may still feel the effects 2 months after. So, Happy Joy, joy right?

Anyway, I try to sleep as much as I can. I will admit working and getting treatment is wearing on me a bit, but if it gets to be too much I just have to back off.

I have to accept the fact that my extra pounds are still holding on. I've been told it comes off gradually, that the chemo med's are still kicking in my body and that's part of the reason why it's not coming off as rapidly as I'd like.

I've also noticed that sometimes I feel the same affects of chemo, as if I were still getting treatments. For example, my knees feel swollen at times, and my chest hurts. Almost like I'm out of breath, or it's hard to catch my breath. I used to feel like that during chemo. So, I have to take the pain med's I used to take for that. They help tremendously, but they make me so sleepy. It's still a process.

Okay, that's all for today. I'm going to try and get better about daily entries. No promises though.

Love, Live Life. JaQuitta!

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1-16

Good Morning! Good Morning!

I know a lot of you have been wondering where in the world have I been. Sorry, but since I've really gotten into the swing of being back at work I haven't had time to Blog like I'd like.

I can tell you that I'm doing well. I'm still getting radiation everyday. I'm exhausted though, it gets kind of old going there everyday fighting traffic for the time it takes to receive the radiation which is all of about 15 minutes.

The doctors tell me I'm doing really really well. I feel like I am. I'm continuing with the aloe vera. I've also gotten back into my work out routine, but I have to be careful not to overdo it and wear myself out. I've lost a few pounds which is GREAT! Yeah me!

My hair is growing back quite nicely...I need about 2 to 3 weeks and I'm letting the wig go.

I've gotten so comfortable with my super short hair that I walk around the newsroom sometimes just as bold as I please...I'm over the whole hair thing, besides when my head needs a break I give my head a break!

My co-workers don't even sweat it, which is great. Some think I'm cute with the short hair--makes my eyes dance and smile... heehee...

okay... gotta run... work is calling...

have a great day...

love live life...

JaQuitta!

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1-3

I'm going to make this one short and sweet.

I'm sitting at my desk after making my necessary phone calls to set up my upcoming story. It's so good to see my co-workers and fill them in on how I'm feeling, and to find out how they've been doing.

I will admit after work yesterday I was pooped!! I had gotten used to taking naps during the day and now I can't. My energy level was pretty good for most of the day.

Radiation is still in full swing. I have to have my necessities at all times with me. One, my deodorant. I can't have anything on when I'm having radiation and it has to be all natural when I do apply it after my treatment. Two, my aloe vera to slather on after treatment to keep my skin as healthy as I can until it starts to change and look like I've got a horrible sunburn in the middle of winter. Three, my smell goods or in other words my perfume.

I have even more reason to look forward to February, that's when I will have my final treatment! yeah! So the countdown is on. I have my calendar and I mark each day. It makes me feel better, I have a goal-something to look forward to.

Lastly, we're having this competition at work. The Biggest Loser, as in losing weight. At first I wasn't going to participate, now, I think I will. I think it will be fun and it will motivate me even more to keep my goal of getting the weight off. My doctor wants me to eat healthy, and kind of maintain what I have, but I will eat healthy and get some of this extra off.

I'll keep you posted on how it goes.

We have a weigh in next week I think. All weight will be kept secret, but I may tell ya how much I weigh, that way you'll know how much I've lost.

We'll see. I don't know if I'm that brave yet.

Okay.. gotta run. Work calls.

Love live life.

JaQuitta!

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1-2

I'm back. I'm back. I'm back. At work I mean.

I can't believe it, but today is my first official day back to work at WSB-TV Channel 2.

It feels weird being back since I've been gone away for quite some time. The last time I was here was in July, so we're talking about nearly 6 months.

I began this morning headed for radiation---I got there early actually, so I was able to get in and out relatively quickly.

My friend Colton who is my radiation specialist was right there with me. He introduced me to two other folks who would be there with me during this time, or part of it; Joshua is a student---and another young lady, I can't remember her name. I told them by the time I'm finished with radiation everyone and their mother would have seen my breasts!

Colton thinks I'm obsessed with them, and he might be right. How can I not be? They're all I've talked about for nearly half a year.

I feel pretty good today. I just can't believe I'm back at work. It feels foreign, but I know I'll get back into the groove at some point.

Not much has changed here in the newsroom. The scanners are going, and my co-workers are talking back and forth across the room about the upcoming show, reporters are on the phone, there's a new crop of interns touring the building.

Again, nothing has changed in this room except me. I don't feel like I'm back home yet, but I know I will. I keep reminding myself that I've been through a great deal in a short period of time, and that I have changed, there's no way you can go through something like I've gone through and not be different.

I thank you for all of your love and support, its meant sooo very much to me. Thank you for lifting me up. Thank you for praying for me. Thank you for all the love.

Okay. I've gotta get to it.

Love, Live Life.

JaQuitta!

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1-1

Happy New Year!

I had a wonderful time last night at church at watch night service. It was such a beautiful experience. I praised God, and sang alongside my cousin Kary until the New Year rang in.

I felt good. I felt awesome. I am excited about this New Year, and grateful for last year. I have had one of the hardest challenges of my life and was able to overcome it. I'm still fighting the good fight.

Radiation has not been nearly as difficult as chemo was. I can tell that the area where I'm receiving radiation is a bit sore, rather sensitive, but I just keep slathering aloe vera on it.

I love the crew over at the hospital my doctor, Dr. Goddett, the radiation therapist who takes such great care of me, Michael Bowe, and Colton Gartin. They make sure I'm lying properly and the rays will hit the right spot. Once they have me in position I can't move, that's very, very important so that I'm treated in the right spot.

Colton thinks I'm a little nutty; kind of out of the box. Every time I get treated I sing or hum---there's a radio in the room and if I know the song I sing it; anything that keeps my mind off of what's really going on. I was singing "Everybody dance now, come on let's sweat, baby, let the music take control, let the rhythm move you." I can't remember the group, but I remember the song. So I got down with my bad self. Ha! When I'm off the table I dance a little bit, then I'm out the door.

I was talking to some of the ladies in the waiting room yesterday. We were discussing when our hair would grow back. I have some strong peach fuzz going on all over my head. I'm told by March I should have a respectable amount, so come on MARCH!!

My weight is still holding steady, Dr. Goddett wants me to hang onto it; she says that since my body is fighting the radiation and getting rid of the bad cells and rejuvenating the good cells my body needs to stay strong to continue to fight.

Good news though, she did say I could work out, but just make sure I listen to my body and don't over do it.

She did mention I would at some point begin to feel tired or fatigued and would need to take a nap. She suggested probably by week 3. We'll see.

Happy New Year! Enjoy this Life that you have the good the bad... all of it! I know I will.

Love and Live Your Life

JaQuitta!

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12/27

It's finally happened after all the hot flashes, being super hot and then back to normal, sweating, you name it. I'm catching a cold---beginning with a sore throat that's actually sore and scratchy. Difficult to swallow, so I'm already on the meds.

Okay, today was day 2 of radiation. It's a fairly quick procedure. I have to lay down on my back on this huge piece of equipment with my arms up over my head holding onto a bar. You don't feel anything at all, it's relatively quick and easy for me. Actually it's a breeze after going through chemo. I'm just a lot more tired today because I think I'm getting sick, so I'm trying to take cold med's to hedge it off.

Anyway, back to what radiation is like -- when the radiation is being administered there's this loud buzzing noise and a red beam of light. The whole procedure lasts about 10 minutes, the tedious part will be going every single day for 6 weeks, but I'll get through it. At least I'll have weekends off. Yeah! It will be over in February! I've already checked my calendar.

I finally found the right kind of aloe vera--no alcohol. It's actually clear and I've already begun slathering it on. I found the all natural deodorant as well. My nurse mentioned that I could also use Almay deodorant, and baking soda. I just can't have anything with aluminum in it , like normal deodorant does. I can't wear perfume, lotion, or perfume lotions in the spot where I'm receiving radiation--if I did it would be bad for my skin and it would be very drying.

Okay, I have to rest now. I can feel the cold coming. The bad thing about them too, as much as you'd like to believe taking cold med's will keep you from catching a cold. The cold has to just run its course.

Love, Live Life. JaQuitta!

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12/26

I hope you had a great Christmas... I surely did. Why? I was alive to celebrate it---that was enough for me!

I think it's interesting how my chemo started on a Wednesday and now my radiation is beginning on a Wednesday as well. Wonder if that means something? Probably not.

This entry will be short and sweet because I've got to get prepared for my first day at the radiologist. My best friend Sesley has agreed to go with me today.

I woke up this morning with a little anxiety, some concern for the unknown, but I quickly got over it. I'm ready now, and besides this is the second half of treatment and the sooner I get to it.. the sooner it will all be over. I need to get a calendar so I can mark out the dates so I'll know when my 6 weeks will be up!!! Right now I'm guessing somewhere in February.

I read the information the doctor gave me last night about radiation so I would know what to expect. I went out and bought what I thought was 100 percent aloe vera.. and it's not.. it has alcohol in it--which is a no-no.. So after radiation is over I've got to try it again.. and this time pay more attention to the ingredients.

Okay, I've gotta run. I'll tell you all about today--- tomorrow.

Love-Live Life. JaQuitta!

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12/24

Can you believe it.. it's the day before Christmas!

I have had some great days lately. It's felt wonderful to feel good. I will never take that for granted anymore; feeling good health wise is not promised.

I begin radiation the day after Christmas, so today my goal is to find 100 percent aloe vera, and all natural deodorant. I have to be prepared.

I'm going to begin putting aloe vera on my skin today and everyday to keep it as hydrated/moisturized as much as I possibly can.

I took my dog to be groomed the other day. It was the first time I tried PetSmart so I was really really worried that they were going to ruin CeeJay's beautiful black hair, but they didn't---they did a great job. You know, I love my dog--he's my baby. Right now, he's tearing up a toy he got for Christmas. Hee hee...

Thanks Diana for your kindness.

I've started doing something that I read in my Crazy Sexy Cancer Tips Book; the author (Kriss Carr) mentioned dancing to a song with yourself by yourself. So, I recently received Mary J. Blige's new Cd called "Growing Pains." She has a song called "Just Fine." I love love love the lyrics, so lately I've been pumping up the volume and I dance dance dance to the length of the song. That's such an accomplishment for me. I remember not long ago my body would not even allow me to head up a flight of stairs without having to stop, or I would have shortness of breath, my chest would ache, or my knees and legs would hurt so badly it would bring me to tears. So now, I relish in the fact that I can dance the length of the song. I've come a long way baby!

I felt so wonderful this weekend. My sisters (sorors) of Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority--Gamma Upsilon, held a luncheon in my honor, celebrating my life. I was so overwhelmed and felt so loved. My soror Toshia Williams put it all together complete with a beautiful program, games, gift baskets filled with pink and green items and breast cancer paraphernalia. It was just a blessing to be there and know that you're loved, supported, cared for and that so many have prayed for you. God is good.

Soror Vida, thank you girl for traveling from Savannah---that's sisterhood, that's love---"We help each other for we know there's no other, like our sisterhood... alpha kappa alpha"

I saw sorors I haven't seen in many many years---women who pledged me and some who I pledged. We talked about our days in college how much fun we had and how life was so simple then, and how THIN WE WERE!!! Adrian (also known as Peanut--I've talked about her before in my blog) brought some cheerleadering photos---I just kept staring at us--cracking up. We were some hot tamales!!!! Love you Adrian... skee-oop! Yes!

At the luncheon we realized we're the same, but we're different now we talk about husbands, children, our health, finances, daycare--blah blah blah..grown folks stuff.

I love you all,--Sorors of Gamma Upsilon Ann, Amy, Vida, Sesley, Deandra,Angie, Cynthia, Toshia,Debbie, Algina(Shortcake) Canvace, and my sister even though she pledged Delta; Adrian!!! Savannah State Alumni.

Thank you to all who came who weren't sorors too.. I love you just as much!

On the gift bags Soror Toshia had the lyrics to the Mary J. Blige song---I thought; Wow!! How fitting--- here's part of what Mary is singing when I'm dancing myself silly.

"Feels so good, when you're doing all the things that you want to do. Get the best out of life, treat yourself to something new. Keep your head up high, in yourself believe in you, believe in me. Having a really good time, I'm not complaining , and I'm a still wear a smile if it's raining, I got to enjoy myself regardless. I appreciate life, I'm so glad that it's fine. So I like what I see when I'm looking at me when I'm walking past the mirror don't stress through the night, at a time in my life ain't worried about if you feel it. Got my head on straight, I got my vibe right-- I ain't gonna let you kill it you--- see I wouldn't change my life, my life's just fine!"

How AWESOME IS THAT? Now can't you kinda understand why I dance?

Please take the time to enjoy one another---your family and friends. Don't be consumed by things/items, but the time you spend together loving each other... I know I will!

Love, Live Life! JaQuitta!

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12/21

I claimed a good day.. and that's exactly what it was yesterday.

I was headed to my appointment with the radiologist and my doctor who performed my lumpectomy, Dr. Rogsbert Phillips called. Well, she wanted to give me the news about a test I took.

I hadn't shared much information with a lot of people about having to take this test, but I'm ready to share the news now.

Dr. Phillips wanted me to take a hereditary syndrome test. You may have heard about; the test determines if you carry a gene that you may have gotten from your mother or father . Now, If you've been diagnosed with any type of cancer this test can tell you the likelihood of it returning. On the other hand, the test is important even if you haven't been diagnosed with cancer -- it can tell you whether or not you will be in the future based on a gene that's passed on from your parents; the BRCA1 or BRCA 2 mutation.

I learned on Thursday that I do NOT carry the mutation. Now, let me back up a little bit, at first I was terrified of the test and part of me didn't want to know. Later, I stopped being afraid and realized knowledge is everything!!! Here's the part that terrified me though, my doctor told me if I tested positive for the mutation or gene -- she would immediately want to head back to the operating table and remove my breast...a double mastectomy. Dr. Phillips informed me that she would recommend the surgery before radiation. I was in tears yet again. The possibility of everything she was suggesting was just too much for me to take. I cried for a few days, then I prayed and realized no matter what the doctor or the test showed, my faith had to be that much stronger.

Here's the update about radiation. I went through a more extensive procedure to get prepared for radiation. There were new markings put on my body so the radiation would be administered to the exact location.

I was also given information about what to expect. For example, I may experience fatigue, and darkening of the skin; kinda like an extreme sunburn. I will have to use soaps with a lot of moisturizers -- the constant radiation will be very drying to the skin I'm told. I will only be allowed to use baby corn starch, or all natural deodorant. I will have to avoid harsh fabrics, avoid exposing my skin to excessive heat or cold.

That's just some of it, but I think I'll be able to handle it, especially after going through chemo; radiation will be a breeze (I hope). I say that because I didn't feel overwhelmed or frightened while I was there. I was just ready to get to it!

Finally, Jovita interviewed me yesterday for the NABJ journal about my diagnosis. NABJ- stands for the National Association of Black Journalists.

Well, the NABJ journal is a magazine for journalists across the country. Every year there is the NABJ journalism convention in a different city -- this year it was in Las Vegas.

The primary article will be with Rene Syler formerly of CBS Morning News (she's written a children's book too) Rene was diagnosed with breast cancer and decided to remove her breast a few years ago.

Rene was someone I shared my diagnosis with in August before I made my announcement public in Atlanta. I remember standing in the middle of the job fair with people all around us running here and there having their news resume tapes viewed by news directors or whomever. I remember Rene and I just being very focused on one another and the bond we now shared. Rene was very kind, she began to cry when I told her; she hugged me, gave me words of encouragement and then we promised we would stay in touch -- and we have.

I enjoyed doing the interview with Jovita. Some of her questions took me back to when I was first diagnosed. I realize how far I've come, and how thankful I am to be alive!

Have a Good Day! Love, Live Life JaQuitta!

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12/20

Hey there! I'm back, and glad to be here. I missed ya, did you miss me?

I just returned from a wonderful, fabulous, awesome trip to Florida.

I knew I needed (more like desperately wanted) to get away before I began radiation. I needed to get my mind right for the second half of this journey, so my fella took me on a mini vacation.

It's been a long time since I've been to Florida. The first stop was Miami, I forgot how much I enjoyed South Beach---and can we talk about 80 degree weather in December. Flip Flops, tank top, shorts wearing weather. Oh, I forgot SWIM SUITS too. That's exactly what it was like on South Beach. I was on the beach with my feet in the water. No swim suit though, but I walked down to the beach just as proudly in my t-shirt with my sweat suit pants rolled up to my thigh. hee hee.

It made me feel awesome to be able to do that. I breathed in the clean air. I soaked up the beauty all around me. I was grateful for the experience. I just love life, and I truly try to absorb every minute of it.

Next up was the drive to Key West. There was water all around us as we drove---in one area along the drive literally there was water to the left and right…the only thing in the middle was the bridge that we were traveling on. Normally something like that would have freaked me out a little, like if the bridge collapsed or some kind of disaster then the only place left to go would be in the water, but it didn't bother me a bit. I felt close to God----it was the most peaceful scene. In some areas along the drive, folks were fishing, boating, jet skiing--just doing life.

I loved loved loved that entire drive and the experience, again so peaceful. There are so many beautiful things, and places in this world. You must get out and see them if you can.

I want to soak them all up, as much as I can, and I will. I claim it!

I love Key West--it was my first visit there, but it won't be the last! It's the kind of place that you can just kick back and relax----the scenery is gorgeous. It reminds me of Charleston, or Savannah but even better.

It was sunny and warm the entire time we were there. My days consisted of walking around window shopping at all the neat shops along Duval Street. One day my fella and I rented bikes for the day and biked together. Key West is very bike and scooter friendly.

We biked for 3 hours along several streets, neighborhoods, to the beach, to shops where we shopped. We just biked and biked and biked, we would stop off and on and take in the sights. I was proud of myself, and I was exhausted when we finally finished for the day. I was also so pleased that I could endure the biking---my feet just kept peddling. I praise God for the healing and allowing me the energy and strength to do it. I smiled and laughed every single day. I was present in each and every moment.

I had a little pain in my chest during the trip, mostly at night, but I would take my med's, sleep and wake up renewed and ready for another relaxing day. I wanted to try my hand at jet skiing so we headed off to rent jet ski's, but I remembered my doctor telling me not to get my markings for my upcoming radiation soaked in water or they would come off. So, I had to pass. No worries though, just something for me to look forward to when I head back there.

Okay, now onto other business--my friend Wendy, I've talked about her before she's a cancer survivor as well. Wendy was diagnosed with a brain tumor twice. Doctors thought she wasn't going to be around, but she let go and let God, she is thriving and has been since each of her diagnosis. Anywho---Wendy put together a mosaic in my honor with the American Cancer Society via the internet. The site also helps to raise money for cancer research. It's called The American Cancer Society Mosaic of Hope. I'd love for you to take a look at it. Here's the link to check it out. I tell my story and how I discovered my tumor, the day my whole life/world changed. Please stay on the journey with me and check it out. http://main.acsevents.org/goto/jaquitta

One last bit of news before I go. Today I'm headed to the Radiologist for a more extensive procedure to prepare me for radiation.

I'm ready too. I just feel good about everything. I don't think I'll be all weepy like I was the last time. I have so much to look forward to today anyway. My best friend comes home today! I'm so excited!!!!!!! I don't plan to let anything spoil that. Oh, and I have more peach fuzz all over my head. My hair at the top is growing a little bit more rapidly. You should see me washing it, conditioning it, and massaging my little pea head. It cracks me up, but I'm so proud of it.

Alrighty---gotta go. I'll tell you all about what happened at the Radiologist tomorrow. LOVE, LIVE LIFE!!

JaQuitta!

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12/17

Good Morning!!!

How ya doing? How was your weekend?

I had a really nice one. You want to hear about it part of it? Well, Friday night my fella and I hung out with Jovita and her husband Sean, over at their home along with some other couples. We had dessert and played Tabu. We had such a great time!!! It was the guys against the girls. The guys won by default, even though I'm sure they wouldn't appreciate me saying that. But it's true. Ha!

I met Fred Blankenship's sweet wife Paige. I was such a goober. She introduced herself, and mentioned she was Fred's wife. I was just smiling at her but thinking. Who is Fred? Then Fred entered the room, or maybe he was already in the room and I just didn't see him, anyway I was like, ohhhhh Fred. She was so nice. A lovely lady!!!

I enjoyed being able to play Tabu because it forced me to work my brain. Chemo is a nasty beast! It takes away your ability to think and recall things sometimes. I think I've mentioned that numerous times before. I repeat myself too, but thankfully I'm getting better, but I have to work at it.

I'm going to keep this entry brief because I'm trying to take a little break from treatment talk until Thursday. More tests to prepare me for radiation day.

Don't miss me too much. I'll pick things back up on Thursday!!!

Love, Live Life! JaQuitta

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12-14

I'm a Warrior! I'm a Solider!

Good Morning. How ya' doin'? I'm feeling good. I'm sipping on my hot green tea; it's part of my morning routine . I mentioned that I'm a warrior and a solider because I'm a fighter and although I may get knocked down, I ALWAYS get back up again, baby.

Talk about the difference a day makes. I feel much better than I did on Wednesday. You can't stay in one spot; you've got to move FORWARD.

My trainer/friend Kym Campbell invited me to go on a walk with her. I jumped at the chance and took my little one CeeJay along for the walk. He needed the exercise; my dog has so much energy.

Anyway, Kym and I began walking and talking. We talked about everything from God, love,friendships, relationships, marriage, struggles in life, pain, death, strength, health, wheat grass, healing. You name it we discussed it. I looked at my watch and realized Kym and I had walked and talked for 2 hours. I couldn't believe it.

I love my Kym---she calls me Coco Bean. I like that name. heehee.

I love Kyms strength, her faith, her goodness, her friendship. I'm so glad God put her in my life.

I truly believe people enter and sometimes exit your life for a reason, season, or lifetime. They're there to teach you something.

Kym is such a positive person; you can't help but feel good and upbeat when you're around her. She's my shero.

I will tell you though, after that 2 hour walk I came home and went to bed. I was exhausted!!!!!! My legs didn't feel like they belonged to me--my feet didn't either, but it was a good feeling. It reminded me that I had been doing something that was good for me, even though there was some pain. I think it's time for some new tennis shoes though.

Health update: I have one more scan to do next week to prepare for radiation---I'm told it will be a slightly longer process; then I believe my start date will be the day after Christmas. I will be sure to let you know.

I've been told that I will darken in the area where I'm having radiation. My survivor posse says that it will be really, really, really dark---like the blackest of the blackest black. I will be given aloe vera to keep that area soothed, and maybe it will help prevent some of the darkening, we'll see. So, of course that was one of my first questions when I had the CT scan on Wednesday. When will the darkening begin? The nurse said it probably won't happen until closer to the end of my treatments. Yippee.. right?

I feel good today. I woke up thanking God for his grace, and mercy---for the healing. I do that every morning and then I get the party started. Crank up the music. It's time to dance.

Love, Live Life!

Have a Wonderful Weekend!!!

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12-13

Yesterday, I was rather pumped up for my follow up visit to the oncologist. Ready to hear what my doctor had to tell me about my white and red blood count. Red count slightly lower, which is why my energy level isn't a 10. White count-good.

I was also excited about learning when radiation would begin --- that way--- I could count down when it would be over.

Well, before I arrived at the doctors office I learned a really good friend of mine who I used to work with in Augusta died.

His name was Diggs, he was a photographer at WRDW-Channel 12 in Augusta. Diggs died from pancreatic cancer.

He was the photographer I really enjoyed working with. He was funny, he knew how to get to every place you could think of in Augusta, he loved his cigarettes, he liked hanging out at "The Cool Spot" and most importantly he LOVED LOVED LOVED to eat. He had a huge appetite, he could eat you under the table! You would think he was a large man, but he was as skinny as a string bean.

I was so sad by his passing yesterday morning. The only thing that made me feel a little bit better is that I talked to Diggs on Thanksgiving Day.

It was important to me to go through my phone directory on Thanksgiving day and call every friend of mine to let them know how important they were to me and how thankful I was.

Diggs told me about his diagnosis that day. He mentioned that he wasn't a candidate for chemo, that he had lost some weight. I remember thinking he sounded a little sad, but it was still good to talk to him. I wanted to go see him, but I didn't have the opportunity. I thought I'd have more time. I had no idea he would leave before I returned home. Again, I'm just glad I had a chance to talk to him. My heart was heavy all day because of that.

Next up, I get to the doctors office, and I was immediately ready to go. I wanted to get out of there. The memories of having to sit in the chemo room came flooding back ,when I saw the room, I wanted to just run out of there--SCREAMING--- but I didn't. I stayed like a champ, as difficult as it was. I thought they would just check my blood.. ask me how I was feeling, and tell me when my radiation day would begin. That's part of what happened. I learned that I would have to have a CT-scan --which I wasn't expecting. It's always hard going to the doctors office expecting one thing, and learning something else. The Ct-Scan was to pinpoint exactly where the radiation will go. They also put these marks---they look like crosses with clear tape on my body that I can't wash off, so that nurses will know where to zap me.

I'm told I may have permanent marks there---or "tattoos," as my friend Schanea calls them. I cried while I was having the scan. I cried because it was just another reminder---it's not over.

I cry sometimes because I miss the woman I used to be. The way I used to look, the way my body used to be without any marks or scars on it---any constant reminders of what I've been through. I miss the way I was before cancer. My new "normal" consists of going on doctors’ visits, always having to be monitored, always wondering if it will come back. I hate that part of my life right now. I don't like that I'm not as strong as I used to be. My body won't allow it right now. Sometimes I long for the woman I used to be. I miss her.

I'm tired of all of it, but I dust myself off--and move forward. I have no choice. FORWARD!

I also realize this journey will never really be over. I'll always be on it.

I think it's odd----I'm a member of the Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority. My line name when I crossed over from pledging was/is "Poison" my line number was 13. That will always be my pledge name, Poison---and I will always remember that I had another kind of poison running through my veins, called chemo. Yesterday wasn't that great of a day, but I had my pity party--Today is a brand new day and I claim that it will be GREAT--NO MATTER WHAT!

I love life--no matter how difficult it may be at times...

Love--Live Life Y’all

JaQuitta

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Okay Folks... I am sore...sore..sore.

Remember I told you I went back to my aerobics class -- I've been trying to get back to my routine. Well, my body is reminding me that I have been doing something -- my legs, my arms, my back, and the list goes on and on of what's sore. It's a good feeling, but a not so good feeling. I think I may have to purchase some bengay, icy-hot, or something that will alleviate the soreness. I've been trying to stretch it out this morning.

I headed out to my aerobics class last night for round two, but got stuck in traffic! I was still sitting in traffic when the class began -- and I don't like being late so I decided to turn around and go back home. God knew what he was doing...I think that was my cue to not overdo it based on how my body feels right now.

I'm rather competitive too, I know if I had made it to class even though I was a little sore I would have pushed myself based on the other folks in the class who would be standing next to me doing the movements. I can't be the one who can't hang -- or who can't go the distance, and I don't like standing in the back -- with the folks who may not always try as hard, and I can't see the mirror! Ha! So again I say, it's a good thing I wasn't there, even though I was rather bummed out that I missed class.

I'm going to keep this entry rather brief. I have a follow up doctors appointment this morning with my oncologist. I hope to learn how I'm doing since my last chemo treatment, if my white blood counts are still high despite the fact that I didn't have to have that dreaded shot to help keep them elevated. I've been told that they may decrease slightly, we'll see.

I will also ask my doctor about some other minor aches and pains I'm having if it's normal or not. Hopefully, I will also find out about when radiation begins. Part of me is ready to start so I can get it over with -- I've heard from folks who have done it before that it's a fairly quick and easy process...just tedious having to go there everyday for 6 weeks, but it's necessary. I will give you the update tomorrow.

I've noticed that I'm NOT having those crazy hot flashes as much anymore. I am crazy happy about that. Definitely something I will not miss.YEAH!!!

Okay, I've gotta jet so I'm not late for my appointment.. I'll tell ya all about it tomorrow.

Much love. JaQuitta!

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12/11

It's Tuesday! Hey. Hey. How are you?

I wake up every morning celebrating life. Thanking God for allowing me to see another day. It's amazing how much more I appreciate things. I think people who have had to deal with a life threatening illness understand the importance of life, and not allowing things you can't control, control you.

I had a really good day yesterday. I took my dog CeeJay to the park. You remember he was being a bully yesterday, staring me down, so I took him to the park and he ran around, jumped, barked, chased other dogs, and did his business for nearly 2 hours. I was a happy camper! He came home and slept for the majority of the day. I'm a good mom. Hee. Hee.

I also decided to head to my aerobics class. I was a little sleepy, but I went anyway, and by the time I was in the class and moving around I felt pretty good. I was trying to move and groove with caution, even though I had surgery to remove the tumor in August --the arm where my doctor removed 3 lymph nodes to see if the cancer had spread is still sore, and rather tender. I have to be very careful with that arm when I work out. My doctor says I still need to exercise it -- so I do. I enjoy being able to be in an aerobics class. I remember after surgery I couldn't lift my arm, I couldn't do half of what I'm doing now. Again, something I'm grateful for. I get to sweat, move around, and it makes me feel like I'm on top of the world.

I'm going to be honest here about something, something I need to really work on. I think I have a body image issue. I never really realized it until now. As you know (because I wouldn't stop talking about it) I gained weight because of the medication. Well, my fella and I were chatting and I got on the subject again and he just said "I think you have a body image issue." Something in my head clicked, and I realized he was right. To my credit though, I work in an environment where what you look like and how you present yourself are important. So, back when I was first diagnosed -- losing my hair, gaining weight, and my body image changing began to change me. Now, I realize none of it is really important -- the people who love me don't love me because of my hair, how much weight I lose or gain -- they love me for me. I've always known that, but it was ME who had to change my way of thinking, and from now on I'm letting it go.

I had a good conversation with a friend, and former co-worker, Chanda who was recently diagnosed with a brain tumor. It was an unexpected diagnosis -- and her type of tumor is very serious (they all are aren't they no matter how large or small.) However, her strength and courage are amazing! Chanda has a strong faith and realizes that she's not in control. Right now, she's being treated with an oral chemo and undergoing radiation.

I thought what I had to go through was bad, but I've learned it could always be worse, and that there are people going through things that are more difficult than you could imagine. I've learned don't complain -- but be encouraged, and be grateful no matter what or how hard it seems.

I was almost embarrassed when I talked to Chanda and we discussed her journey. She has been so strong. She says she realizes the seriousness of her diagnosis, but she knows she has to fight, she says she has no other choice.

Me, on the other hand I had several breakdowns when I first learned, I was an emotional mess! I guess what I'm saying is, I wish I had been as strong as Chanda in the beginning, but then I remembered everyone handles things differently. My journey isn't Chanda's or anyone else's. I needed to be a mess, I needed to have my breakdowns and build ups. I needed to just fall out on the floor kicking and screaming then dust myself off and get ready for the battle.

I realize I've grown, and there's much more growing for me to do. I'm ready.

I am a cancer survivor -- I am among so many people who have dealt with cancer and know how to live because of it. I don't fear death as much anymore -- but I love my life and I'm going to live it like crazy!

Love, Live Life! JaQuitta!

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12/10

What's up! I'm coming up on my 4th week of NO CHEMO!! Yes...I'm so excited...

I have a doctors appointment this week, and I will find out when my radiation begins. I think I'm going to work while I'm being treated. I'll see what the doctor says.

Now, let's talk about what I've been up to. I went on a quick little trip with a friend of mine from college. Her nickname is Peanut. We were cheerleaders together at Savannah State -- I LOVE HER! She's so much fun and has so much energy. Peanut has such a wonderful spirit about her. So, anyway we went to Pearl River Resort in Choctaw, Mississippi. I'd never heard of it, but I had a great time. We went on a charter bus! I can't remember the last time I was on a bus.

I had a great time though, I felt like I needed to do something to celebrate the end of chemo.

I met a lot of sweet people on the bus, we watched movies, played games, listened to Christmas music, played cards (not me though, I don't know how to play anything but Uno and there were no Uno cards.) It was just nice feeling normal again, and folks on the bus didn't know who I was until later on in the trip. So, there was no real talk of cancer until later. I didn't mind talking about it though, everyone was concerned about me -- but I assured them I'm doing really well.

I want to change the way people think about people who have been diagnosed with cancer. The worst thing is when people look at you or talk to you differently. I also don't like that pity look that some people don't realize they're doing. We are pretty much the same people, treat us that way.

I'm rather tired after the trip I will admit, but the trip was so well worth it. I had a wonderful time meeting new people, and being me again. My energy is coming back slowly -- each day I feel more and more like myself.

Okay, my dog is literally staring me down. He's making it hard for me to write this entry. He missed me while I was gone. I think he's ready for a walk. I gotta go. I'm being bullied!

Until tomorrow.. JaQuitta!

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12/6

I'm so tired of these Hot Flashes--I don't know what to do.

They seem to interrupt everything, my sleep, conversations with friends, you name it.

I can't wait until they're over.

The temperature has gotten relatively cooler/cold outside, but I have yet to put on a coat. Why? Because the hot flashes keep me warm, and not to mention my wig. It's my go with everything hat. When I get home it's the first thing to go.

When I'm having the hot flash I immediately start sweating. You can see it. My body temp changes. It's such a trip! Again, I can't wait until they're over. Yet another reason why I constantly drink a lot of water!

I still experience chemo brain as well. I'm forgetful at times still, and it takes me a minute to come up with words----I'm told that may or may not go away.

I may always have chemo brain in some form my doctor tells me, which is why I constantly try to keep my mind active. Exercise it!

I had lunch yesterday with an incredible woman. She's my new found friend who was diagnosed twice with a brain tumor. She's incredibly strong and I admire her a great deal.

During our lunch I sat in awe of her, listening to her story. How some doctors gave up on her, told her she wouldn't survive, and she did.

She is amazing! I'm glad I know her, and can call her friend.

Enjoy the rest of your day folks! I'm about to massage my scalp for hair growth stimulation. Soon, it will be week four and I still don't have hair cascading down my back. heehee

Love, Live Life!

JaQuitta!

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12/5

Happy 3 week anniversary to me!!!!

This time 3 weeks ago, I was getting set for my final chemo treatment. Today, it feels good to know I don't have to get any chemo, no sitting in the reclining chair, no putting my fingernails in icy cold water to prevent my nails from darkening, no eating pretzels so that I don't feel nauseous. I could go on and on. Bottom line, I feel so very blessed.

I still have these aches and pains, but nothing like before. I still have to take pain medication from time to time, but it's all worth it to know -- NO MORE CHEMO! I still get really tired and sleepy. I have to take a nap everyday.

I'm still waiting to see how long it will be before my hair starts filling in. You should see me, I catch myself looking at men who have more hair than me. The only ones who have less hair than me are the ones who shave their heads bald. I've got them beat! Ha! Just wait, soon, I'm going to have an all new hair style. I just can't wait to see how I look with super short hair. I've never had really short hair before except when I was an infant, that was about it.

I almost get excited about knowing that my hair will be wash and go. I can go on vacation, swimming, or whatever and not have to worry about what I'm going to do with my hair.

If you are an African American woman dealing with relaxers, flat irons, curling irons, or whatever your hair service may be...You know what I mean. I'm also excited about the money I will be able to save. I just hope the short hair style looks okay on me. We'll see. Then again, after all I've been through. Who cares how it will look. It will be great!

Okay, gotta jet. Enjoy this day. I know I will. JaQuitta!

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12/4

I wonder how long it will be before I really start to feel 100% good.

I try to stay active by walking, and I stepped out and went to an aerobics class recently. I remember when I was at 100% I used to be able to keep going and going and going. I had major energy!

Well, I felt proud of myself in class not long ago because I was able to continue to move during the class, but I'm no where near 100% -- I slept well though..YEA!!!!!!

It's important to me to be strong again -- it will help in the fight to continue to kick cancer's butt!!!!!

I want to also get my energy back up as well because I'm going to need it when I head back to work. I realize though, I need to take advantage of this time away from work to be with family and friends. It's something I've never really had the opportunity to do before because I was usually ALWAYS working.

I will have the chance to hear next week what will happen in regards to radiation. When I will begin. What will it be like exactly and for how long. I just don't think it will be anywhere near being as bad as the chemo was. I'd like to head back to work while I'm having radiation. I've heard from other survivors who were able to do both, I'll have to see what my doctor says though. I know radiation will be for 6 weeks, so I will have yet another reason to celebrate once the 6 week period is over.

Okay, it's nap time. Until tomorrow... JaQuitta!

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12/3

It's already a Good Morning and a Great day and it hasn't really started yet.

Let me begin by telling you what's been happening with me. Friday, I had the most WONDERFUL massage at the Four Seasons. Aromatherapy. My new found friend Marsha is responsible for that. I can't find the words to thank her enough for what she did for me that day. She has no idea of how important her act of kindness meant to me. I felt incredibly special. I truly needed the pampering and all the scents, oils, and massage to make me feel like a pretty flower. The massage was followed by a spirited lunch. Marsha and I laughed and talked like old girlfriends. I was so thankful, I still am.

For about 4 days last week for some reason I lost my appetite. I was nauseous, but never threw up -- THANK GOODNESS! I could eat a piece of fruit and that would be enough to sustain me for the rest of the day. The smell of food would make me nauseous as well . If I didn't know better, you would think I was pregnant! I'M NOT!

Sunday was the first day I ate a complete meal and felt fine. I don't really know why I lost my appetite like that, but I do hope it's over. If it happens again, I will call my doctor to find out if that's normal or not because that's never happened before.

I think I'm starting to see a little progress with my hair coming back. Lately when I look at my hair in the mirror it seems there is more of it -- especially on top. That makes me so excited. Although, I think I may have gotten carried away with the re-grow hair care products. I have 3 different products I've been told from various people will work to promote hair growth. So, what am I doing? Using them all. I'm praying by mid-December, if not before then, I will have enough hair to ditch the wig. I don't even think of my wig as a wig anymore. It's like a hat...hee..hee.. It's awesome for keeping me warm, that is, until I have a hot flash. Yes! I'm still having them.

The Christmas Parade was Saturday. I had such a great time. My co-anchor John Bachman and I sat in a Lexus convertible together. John and I laughed, waved, high 5'd each other -- bottom line: we had such a great time together. I really enjoy working with him. It was such a joy and so much fun seeing all the folks lined up along the parade route. So many would yell out to me that they have been praying for me, or blow me kisses. It was soooooooo much love! I LOVED IT!!! It made my heart smile. They would yell out to John how handsome he is. Well, maybe they didn't yell that out, but I know they were thinking it.. Ha!

Up until today, I was truly struggling with the weight issue, and the fact that I've only lost a few pounds. I thought the weight would just fall off by now, but it's a slower process than I would like. Now, I'm just letting it go. I can't keep whining about the same thing over and over. I'm starting to get sick of myself. So, I've let it go. Besides, I've recently learned two people I know have been diagnosed with cancer. One has a brain tumor, the other pancreatic cancer. Serious business. Cancer is such a serious "thing" no matter what kind you're diagnosed with, I'm praying for them both.

Finally, I realize I may never find out why I got cancer and where it came from. Not knowing has been the hardest part, but I realize I can't spend a whole lot of time on why -- I have to focus on living. I'm excited about being alive! I'm truly going to enjoy this holiday season. I'm happy -- I'M ALIVE, I'M A SURVIVOR!!! How awesome is that!

Love, Live Life! JaQuitta!

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11/27

Hey!! How are you?

This entry will be a short one. I'm sleepy.

I'm doing really well though, and I feel great today!

I ran-walked this morning! It was somewhat of a struggle, but I got through it and for an hour! I would run for 5 minutes then I would stop and walk, then I would run for 10 minutes, then I would walk. It was hard, but I got through it and it felt wonderful.

I think that's why I'm so sleepy. I came close to wearing myself out, but NOT overdoing it.

I can't wait until I'm strong enough to get through 30 minutes of running then walk for 30 minutes. I know I'm going to graduate to an hour like I used to be able to do. I'm exhausted though, after I get caught up with you, I'm going to take a nap -- I need one.

I've been eating salads for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I really enjoy them. I add salmon, or tilapia to mix it up. I feel better mentally too. I'm excited about what's waiting for me around the corner.

I can't wait to start seeing my hair grow back. People who are cancer survivors always tell me about how quickly the hair grows back. I can't wait to see if what I've been told is true. I just hope I don't start sprouting hairs all along my chin line or a mustache! Ha! But you know what after all I've been through...I wouldn't complain about it.

Okay, it's time for me to wrap this up -- siesta time...in other words, nap time. My dog CeeJay has already beat me to it.

Love, Live Life. JaQuitta!

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11/26

It's Monday. Good Morning!

I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I enjoyed the holiday. I ate with family and friends. I didn't eat too much though. I really didn't want that stuffed feeling, and I wanted to watch what I put into my body.

I took the rest of the day to enjoy my time with myself and by myself. I really needed that solo time to really think back to the day when I was diagnosed with breast cancer and all that I have endured since then. Each day that passes I feel myself improving in some ways, but I can still tell there is something in my body--the chemo---based on the aches and pains I feel. I still can't believe it sometimes, since July my life has drastically changed. I am thankful though, grateful because God has been carrying me on this journey.

This Thanksgiving, no matter what happened I wasn't going to let anything or anybody allow me to forget that I have so much to be thankful for. My life is forever changed---cancer has done that for me in such a positive way.

Since Thanksgiving Day I have really taken the time to relax. relax. relax. It makes such a difference. rest. rest. rest.

I can't wait until the third and fourth week after my chemo treatment to see what happens with my hair.

I've been using a leave in hair conditioner that contains placenta in it to start the process, even though it hasn't been 2 weeks yet. I'm ready to get the hair follicles going.

I guess you can say I'm anxious. Very anxious. I'm ready to have enough hair so I can stop wearing the wig. Just enough for my hair to be filled in all over my head and I would be more than satisfied with that. I'll let you know how the product is working.

I also bought vitamins to help people like me with temporary hair loss--they have antioxidants and minerals to stimulate new hair growth. I won't start taking them until week 4---that way I have a better chance of the vitamins truly doing their job and not fighting against the chemo that's still in my system.

I'm also going to be using a serum to stimulate the scalp. It's supposed to have vital nutrients, to help your hair to grow. blah blah blah. Bottom line, I hope they work. I'll keep you posted.

I'm still working on getting healthy. I've been eating loads and loads of greens. Organic spring mix, romaine, spinach, kale, green peppers, broccoli.

The majority of the time I mix it all together in a huge bowl add some of my other ingredients like walnuts, tomatoes, almonds, and raisins for a little sweetness, and 2 tablespoons of salad dressing, and I mean 2 tablespoons, it's really all you need. Mix it up and enjoy!

I just want to live! I want my body on the inside to be like a perfectly oiled machine.

YEAH!!!!!! It's raining. How Wonderful is that!

JaQuitta!

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11/20

When Computers Work they're GREAT!! When they don't... it's not fun!

Good Afternoon!

I'm sorry I didn't blog yesterday and I'm late today----I've had several days of trying to get my computer fixed.. It's been a mess! I won't worry you about what happened, how it happened, and blah blah blah, bottom line it's fixed now, FINALLY!

Now, onto new business....

As many of you know my final chemo treatment was last week, and I've really been trying to enjoy that that's all behind me.

I haven't been sleeping well though since last Wednesday. The steroids prevent you from sleeping, and as exhausted and as tired as I am I can't sleep. It's a horrible experience! Can't stand these steroids, even though I know in the long run they're helping me. I'm just glad I don't have to take anymore of them. I can't wait until they're out of my system. I've been counting the days since I noticed my taste buds being out of whack, and it usually takes 10 days for me to begin tasting food normally.

Oh, another side effect ---- the steroids affect my mood. I don't feel my best self. I get annoyed easily, sometimes very angry--- My patience---very thin, so when I realize it's happening--- I take myself away from people or situations that I know won't be good. That way, I'm not somewhere screaming at the top of my lungs having people think I'm a lunatic. But, it's such a crazy way to feel. You want to just crawl of your skin. My medicine is taking myself for a long walk---my dog gets to reap the benefits too. I try to make us both so tired all we can do is sit somewhere and be quiet.

I threw up for the first time today since I've had chemo etc. I was at the park with my dog and I could just feel it coming on. Ya' know that feeling you get---and there's just nothing you can do.. it's coming out. Next thing I know my fruit smoothie was all over the grass. My poor dog was looking like.. What's wrong with you mama, but then he ran off to tinkle on something.

But I figured hey, look at the bright side if this is the first and only time I threw up during this whole experience--then WAY TO GO GIRL! At least it's at the end of it, instead of the beginning.

Oh, I had an 8 oz glass of Wheatgrass today, wonder if that had anything to do with me throwing up? Curious---maybe, maybe not---- I don't know but it's still really nasty enzyme filled stuffed. I surely see the benefits and more importantly feel the benefits of me drinking liquid grass in a cup---so I will continue.

I will just have to make sure I keep my stomach coated with a little bread to keep everything settled.

Okay... I'm going to jet. Need to relax my mind.

Until tomorrow..

JaQuitta!

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11/16

What a difference not having to have that shot after chemo makes...

Good Friday Morning to you! I'm feeling fine.

How are you? Well, I should also tell you I never sleep that great when I'm on the steroids. They keep me up for the better part of the entire day even though I feel tired, but I can never really really rest like I want to -- nor do I get a sound sleep. It's okay though...this is my last time with this so I'm sucking it up!

Taste buds out of whack for the last time. I've been doing the wheatgrass drink for the past week or so...I've up the amount each time, first it was just an ounce...then 2 ounces...today I did 4...I'm trying to graduate to an 8oz hit then 16oz.

Boy! It does NOT taste good at all. However, I think about all the benefits and I get over it. I swish it around in my mouth then I swallow.

You gotta do what you gotta do. Oh, and that smoothie I love is the Berry Extraordinary. It's quite yummy and only has 250 calories. Try it if you're up for it. I get them at the GNC store. And they give me such great energy, they truly make me feel like JaQuitta at 100%!

I've been eating a great deal of green veggies too. Every time I think about it, I shove spinach, broccoli, ANYTHING GREEN in my body. I feel the difference. I do a little salmon and tuna, but that's about it for now. VEGGIES, VEGGIES, VEGGIES!

Some of you have been asking me where I've been on Sundays on the anchor desk. As you may remember I came back to work on a part time basis after surgery in September. Well, I've had to stop. I won't be returning until early next year. It's too long to explain...bottom line -- it's an insurance-disability issue.

But, I will be back better than ever. You'll see! I miss you very much though -- so keep reaching out to me via email, or on the viewer messages to me. I'm still reading them all. I have at least 3 huge folders filled with your BEAUTIFUL comments. I LOVE THEM!

Did you see the photo of Robin Roberts from GMA? She's in the latest issue of People Magazine-bald...I'M SO PROUD OF HER!! I have photos of myself, I may take a leap of faith to share at some point. I'm not there yet, however, my hair never all came out. I don't have a bald head. I have had curly peach fuzz all over my head since I decided to brush it out on my own. I'm kinda proud of my peach fuzz.

I can't wait for a few weeks to roll by so I can begin to see it growing again.

I have some really good products to help with that. I can't wait to tell you how and if they work. Stand by all my soldier girls in the breast cancer battle current, past, future...whatever. I've got-cha.

Enjoy your weekend. I plan to do the same. As you may imagine I'm taking Thanksgiving Day off to be with my family and friends, so--no blog that day, but I'll follow up to let you know all the details.

Have a Great Weekend! JaQuitta

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11/15

Good Thursday Morning to you!

This Blog will be brief...my dog is whining and ready to go outside and he's staring a hole into me. So, I've got to get moving. CeeJay can be so demanding.

Anyway, what a WONDERFUL day yesterday -- Chemo over and done with, I've been floating on a cloud since then.

I slept relatively well last night. Oh, oh...as I write this I'm feeling a hot flash coming on. I never know how and why they come or when they come, but it's a trip!

I thank you all for your love, emails, and support. It's meant so much to me.

I'm glad one part of my journey is over and the next one begins, even though my doctor wants me to wait about 4 weeks before the radiation begins.

I can't wait to begin to see the weight come off, and the hair to grow back, and the hot flashes to go away!!! yippp---pee!!!!!!

My dog is NOT going to give up on letting me know he needs to go out...and is demanding my attention...okay...I've gotta go...More tomorrow...

Much love and thank you for watching my journey and being there for me.

I had a great great day yesterday!!! Hope you had a chance to see the coverage if not...check it out on the web and you will see all the joy and excitement I felt yesterday...

Love, Live Life. JaQuitta!

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11/14

THE DAY IS FINALLY HERE!! MY FINAL CHEMO TREATMENT! Yes.

Can you tell I'm sooo very excited? Good Morning everyone -- this is the day I've been waiting for since I learned that I would have to have chemo. Now, it's here. I can't begin to express to you the joy I feel. A burden that's lifting...THANK YOU JESUS!

I felt great yesterday -- I had another wheatgrass drink, a double this time, and a fruit smoothie...strawberries, blueberries, blackberries...I can't remember what the actual name of the smoothie is...but it made me feel incredible!!!!! My energy was up---way up -- I felt close to 100% yesterday so I'm going to do it again this morning before my final treatment. I will let you know what the name of the smoothie is for my next entry.

I'm also going to take some anti-nausea medication before I head to my final chemo treatment. Last time I experienced a hint of nausea from the anti-nausea medication they administer -- what's up with that? Anyway, I hope the pre-med's will shave off the icky feeling!!!!

But no matter what...I won't have to do this again, so whatever I experience today it will be well worth it because this part of the journey will be over. NO COMPLAINTS FROM ME!!! Woooo-who!!!

Chemo down -- Radiation to go. After today, I'm midway through this journey. Next up, radiation. I've run into women who say radiation made them tired, others have said they were just fine, and finally I met a woman who had a heart attack from her radiation treatment...she too is close to my age. I'm optimistic that radiation will be a breeze.

I'm going to make this brief because I want to walk my dog before I get ready to head out to my appointment and I've gotta stop by and get my wheatgrass-fruit smoothie fix! And, eat my fat green salad loaded with veggies...YUM!

Have a great day ya'll...I KNOW I WILL!!! Hallelujah... Hallelujah...Hallelujah..Hallelujah...GOD IS GOOD!

Love, Live Life JaQuitta

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11/13

Good Tuesday Morning!

It's the day before my final chemo treatment...I'm trying to figure out how I feel. Believe me, I'm very excited that I won't have to have the chemo anymore. I will miss the nurses and Dr. Weakland, my oncologist. It's so nice knowing after this treatment..no more medication...no more bloating..no more whacky taste buds...You have no idea what a blessing that is for me. I hope my taste buds cooperate with me on Thanksgiving Day.

I've been doing a lot of research on changing my eating habits after reading "Crazy Sexy Cancer Tips" by Kris Carr... How what you put inside your body has a positive or negative result. I have to be more aware of food combinations as well as adding a great deal of green veggies and I want to try and eat raw uncooked foods...enzymes...enzymes..enzymes...I'll let you know how that goes once I truly get into it. I don't want to EVER have to deal with cancer again...EVER!

My mother and I had some wheatgrass yesterday, and we followed it up with some pineapple juice-to cut the I'm drinking green grass taste. It smells like the grass on your lawn, and it tastes like it!

I'm proud of my mom, she said it wasn't too bad and she drank it like a champ. I love her!!!! She's just AWESOME. She's always right there with me.. right by my side.

I used to have wheatgrass a lot when I was working out with my trainer Kym Campbell--but got out of the habit.

It surely is an acquired taste...I researched a book on the benefits of wheatgrass too. I'm going to have some everyday. I want to graduate up to drinking a glass full.

It has been such a journey taking on cancer---and beating it!

It has been an emotional, crazy rollercoaster ride, and that's the best way to describe it.

I still cry, but I laugh too. I get it all out and I move on, it's so hard sometimes---but I keep pushing forward.

I have such an incredible support team that allows me to just talk. Sometimes you need that, you just need to get it out. Your fears, your anger, your joy, your everything!!!!!!

I rely heavily on faith too. I would like my faith to be much stronger, but I realize I'm not there yet, however I'm working towards that goal. My diagnosis was my test of faith, and I surely want to pass the test and I WILL!

So, I'm feeling good and I'm looking forward to my last chemo session. I hope it won't zap my energy too much. We'll see. I have a few weeks to recover then---Radiation begins.

Have a good day y'all.

Love, Live Life.

JaQuitta!

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11/12

Good Morning... before you say anything...

I know, I know I've been away for a while and a number of you have emailed me asking if I was okay or what happened and informing me that I was no longer on the main page of our website.

Well, let me tell you. I was absent because I needed a break from talking and blogging about cancer, chemo, radiation, and anything else that pertains to what's happened to me and my health. I just didn't want to discuss it for a while. I needed a break from my life, well, that part of my life.

It's the only subject people seem to discuss with me now. How are you? How do you feel? What's next? We're praying for you. Bless your heart. Thank you for sharing your story... etc.

And believe me, I know all the questioning from the majority of people is from a genuine place and concern for me, and I appreciate it more than you will ever know, but still I wanted the break -- so I took one. I probably should have told you first, so that you wouldn't worry, but I just wasn't thinking about it.

As far as where I can be found. I'm still around on our website. Just click here www.wsbtv.com/station and you'll find me.

So, what's been happening with me. Well, I've been trying to stay peaceful. I've been trying to do more exercising and more frequently since my last chemo treatment is just around the corner. I want to get my stamina back up again, even though at times I'm truly out of breath, but I keep pushing.

I'm also aware my last chemo treatment may make me even more tired than I already am because with each treatment I've experienced just a little bit more fatigue, and it takes me a little bit longer to recover, but I'm hoping if I keep my mind positive and filled with positive thoughts then it won't be so bad. After all, THE CHEMO WILL BE OVER!!!!!

Oh, by the way... I'm on the cover of Atlanta Goodlife magazine the article is entitled JaQuitta Williams: Staring Down Cancer.

IT'S MY FIRST MAGAZINE COVER... I'm so very flattered!!!! It makes me feel so incredibly special. I hope you all get a chance to pick it up…it's a free magazine. I'm sharing the cover with my beautiful son/dog CeeJay. He's so HANDSOME! You can find the magazine at Publix grocery store. AND IT'S FREE!!!! (I said that already right. I repeat myself a lot sometimes. Sorry. I blame it on the chemo and am told it's a side effect.)

Gale Gay the Editor-in-Chief of the magazine made me feel so comfortable along with her crew. It was an amazing experience.

Oh, guess what else I have been experiencing...HOT FLASHES!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, my goodness...it's like out of no where I feel a wave of the hottest heat and I actually SWEAT -- I can literally wipe away perspiration…IT'S CRAZY!!!!!!!

And it happens more often than I'd like. Yet another chemo side effect I'm dealing with. I just keep reminding myself I'm midway on this journey... THANK YOU JESUS! All the pre-menopausal and women who deal with menopause and hot flashes…LADIES, I understand!!!!!!!!!

One last thing -- I've been doing some extensive research on my eating habits. They're about to change dramatically. After reading that book Crazy Sexy Cancer Tips -- seeing the author on Oprah I'm going to adopt some of her eating habits. She's big on wheat grass, and eating raw veggies…things like cucumbers, celery, broccoli stalks, sweet pea sprouts (I don't even know what that is) flax seed and mung bean sprouts (don't know that either) but I'm going to take my book with me when I head to the whole foods grocery store so my staying healthy -- keeping cancer away eating habits can begin. I just have to give up chocolate which is going to drive me nutty for at least 2 weeks, but I can do it. I've noticed if I eat it lately, it aggravates the breast where I had surgery, and I don't want that so I have to stop. Besides, it will be great for me as I drop these added pounds.

Okay…I'll stop here before I write a novel. I guess that's what I get for staying away for so long. I have so much to talk about.

Until tomorrow...

Love, Live Life JaQuitta!

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10/31

Talk about a Good Wednesday Morning!!!

I made eggs this morning and TASTED THEM!!! Can you say Yeah eggs!!

This has been the first morning where I've felt like myself.

My body isn't hurting so much, I'm not as tired, and I don't have that metallic taste in my mouth.

It's still there, but not as much. I brush my teeth constantly---and sadly it only takes the taste away for a little while, but that's okay. ONE MORE ROUND OF CHEMO LEFT!!!!

I ate a super sized snickers bar last night..why? Because I could. AND BECAUSE I COULD TASTE IT!!! yeah Snickers!

I have to be careful not to wear myself out though. I still get tired quickly. I went for a 30 minute walk this morning. It was a slow one, but a walk just the same and now I feel like I've been zapped of all my energy. So, I feel a nap coming on.

I can't wait until I can really really work out. I'm excited about being able to run... and get this weight off me. I'm interested to see how much or quickly it will begin to shed. I'm going to be on a serious mission. I've already signed up several of my friends to run with me to help in my weight loss campaign----they have no idea of what's in store..heehee..

Okay, sleep is calling.

Happy Wednesday!

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10/30

Good Morning All---

It's been a rough week for me. I'm really really tired.

The luelasta shot (day after chemo) is doing a number on me, my body just doesn't feel like mine, I can't wait until it wears off---I'm hoping by the end of the week.

Taste buds out of whack yet again. I can't stand the rollercoaster ride!!!!

I've been sleeping, sleeping, and sleeping that's all I do after the shot. I think each time after the shot I sleep for about 3 days off and on.

This will be the last time I have to feel this way, so it makes going through this not as bad, but it's not good either.

I wonder how people who go through this continue to function, the ones who say they go to work and blah blah blah. I couldn't imagine because I can't keep my eyes open. My body feels like it belongs to someone else. I just don't feel my best self, but I certainly applaud the people who can do both.

It never fails, by the time I begin to feel better it will be time for my last chemo treatment. But, that's well worth it. Well worth it. I realize I begin to feel better the week before chemo. So, I have one week when I feel great, and 2 when I really don't----but no worries.... MY LAST CHEMO TREATMENT IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER.

I'm not going to make this a page turner today. I'm exhausted and I've worn myself out just writing this entry.

I think I've got to listen to my body, and guess what it's saying…"sleep"

Until tomorrow,

JaQuitta!

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10/25

The Day After Chemo!!! Good Morning..

The third treatment is behind me, now I only have ONE more to go!!!! YEAH...Can you rejoice along with me! PRAISE GOD, you hear me!

My oncologist gave me such great news yesterday and every time I thought about the news I had to say a little prayer.

Dr. Weakland told me that I will NOT have to have the Luelasta shot after MY LAST TREATMENT in November!!

You have no idea of how happy that makes me, because as I've mentioned on numerous occasions.. it's that dreaded shot that makes me feel sooo terribly bad after the chemo.

Now, I will say this too...my second treatment and my third treatment of chemo began to make me feel a little nauseous while in the chemo chair.

I thought it was because of the chemo, it wasn't. I hadn't gotten the chemo yet, my nurse told me it was the medicine they give me that's the anti-nausea medicine which indeed MAKES me nausea. WHO KNEW? So, I ate pretzels, drank ginger ale, anything breaded to calm my queasy stomach.

I had to break down and take some anti-nausea meds when I arrived back home---they worked well and the nausea was allll over.

The chemo made me really really tired though. I felt like I had been up all day and night for a week or something and all I could do is get in the bed and sleep. I wonder what in the world makes you soo incredibly tired and sleepy like that. But, as always I listen to my body and I rest and sleep.

I'm going to get my shot today. My arm is soo sore where they draw my blood (white count is still high and through the roof--great news) and administer the chemo, so the nurse suggested putting it in the fat of my belly. She mentioned how for several patients it's the only place they will get it. Less painful, but the thought of that makes me a little squeamish. BUT, after all if this is going to be my LAST LAST shot, then I may just close my eyes, suck it up, and DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so happy that this part is almost over. I get to move FORWARD in the journey. LOVE that word "FORWARD" I saw Oprah the other day where she had two guests on there who knew they were going to die because of cancer---did you see that show? IT WAS EXCELLENT!!! It moved me literally--it made me get up after it was over…walk my dog with a new found energy. More thankful than I already am about my journey, my blessings.

I realize we are ALL GOING TO DIE, but it's a bitter pill to swallow when you know it will be in a few months or day, and to still see how positive they were, and brave. I was in awe of Oprah's guests and I related to them so much. So, that's what makes living IN THE MOMENT so very important for me. I don't know about you, but it's exactly how I will live this life of mine EVERYDAY!

Okay, gotta get my mind ready for the shot, and know that I'm smiling because it's the LAST ONE!!!!!! HALLELUIAH!!!!!!

Love, Live Life.

JaQuitta!

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10/22

Good Morning My Cheerleaders!!!

I wanted to read some of your messages to me this morning before I began writing my blog.

Your messages always, always help me -- no matter how rough my day is going, to read your messages…well, they instantly make me feel better.

I am getting set for chemo. I decided I'm not going to dread it anymore. It's amazing how I know what to expect, but the effects on my body each time has the possibility of being different. More painful. Well, I'm not going to sweat it anymore, I've given it too much of my energy for the past 3 days and I'm not going to give it anymore. It's a wrap!!!

Besides, the sooner I go in and get it done, the sooner my final treatment will come and the chemo part of my life will be over.

I will admit, I'm already tired of my wig. Imagine someone putting their entire hand on top of her head and extending their fingers as wide as they can -- but again all over your head, and as snuggly as they can -- that's what wearing a wig feels like to me. So, the first chance I get -- that puppy is OFF!!!

Don't get me wrong it's still cute, and I love the sassy style. I'm just not used to anything foreign being on my head for a long period of time. I still have my own hair underneath. It's super short, but it's mine!!!

I can't wait until chemo is over so that when it starts filling in -- and I have a head full of hair -- I will have my own hair on display again. I won't rock the wig.

I think often about how my life has changed. Everything about it. I'm more aware everyday how things can change in an instant. I also realize that I can't take anything or anyone for granted...NOTHING.

I've been drinking green tea like crazy -- I'm told that helps with the taste buds. I'll let you know if it worked once I have my chemo treatment and the taste buds start acting up. We'll see.

Well, I'm heading to the breakfast table. My mother is working her magic!!!!

JaQuitta!

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10/18

It's so nice to see and hear the rain!

As a breast cancer survivor -- I appreciate so many things that I took for granted. I love that I feel like I'm really, really living now, not that I wasn't before, but I truly live differently.

I was watching the Today show this morning and during a segment one of the anchors mentioned she had breast cancer and decided to reveal it. She had a mastectomy -- I loved her courage and her willingness to talk about it, even though you could tell it was an emotional moment for her. Again, listening to her story there were things I related to, identified with so clearly.

In describing her journey she used the word "forward" what a WONDERFUL word...FORWARD. It has such hope and positive energy around it. Moving forward. That's what I'm doing, that's what we should all do! I'm proud to be a cancer survivor! I'm proud that I'm forever changed by this experience. I also live in "the now."

I used to always, always think ahead, plan days in advance, I would map out and plot out my future goals. I'm not saying in some ways I still do that, however, it's not my primary goal like it used to be. The goal now is "right now," nothing more than that. I realize if I don't relish in the right now, I miss things sometimes, lose a moment, miss out on something that's so important because I wasn't in the now. I don't do that anymore. See how cancer has changed me? See how it's taught me how to live? See how it makes me smile? Well, you can't see me smiling now, but just know that I am!!!

Chemo day is right around the corner, I'm starting to realize a pattern with me. I have anxiety on the days before it. I don't sleep as well. Don't really know what that's about. I know what to expect (sort of) well, I should say the procedure is the same each time I go, but how it affects me afterwards is different, at least it has been. I guess in the back of my mind I'm wondering what will be different after round 3. Maybe that's where the anxiety is coming from, the unknown -- I'll see what happens and let you know.

I'm going to wrap this up now, I'm heading outside to stand and soak up some of this rain. Just because I can.

Until tomorrow. JaQuitta!

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10/17

Hey---It's Wednesday!!!!

How are you? I'm feeling pretty good. I had to crack up yesterday. I was shampooing my extremely short hair, conditioning it, and somehow it had the nerve to get tangled...I was chuckling because I was like...how does that happen? So, I sprayed on a leave-in conditioner to relax the tangles -- cracked me up!

Anyway, I have a few more days left before my third trip to the chemo chair, and beginning those dreaded med's that make me bloated and uncomfortable, but when I think about that...I also think about all the exercises I'm going to do to get back to my fighting weight! I get all goose bumped about it. I'm so excited about being able to exercise like I want to. I just refuse to buy any new clothes to accommodate the extra pounds -- so sweatpants and cotton shirts are my best friends. I have this cute sexy black dress that is my motivation -- it's hanging up challenging me, getting me ready. Watch out ya'll…

I'm trying my best to write this blog, but my dog won't let me. He's sitting in my lap with the majority of his weight resting on my arm. It's rather difficult to type, but I'm still doing it. My dog is so spoiled and loves attention. I can't complain though, it's an environment that I've created. It's amazing how pets can be such a source of comfort and calm.

The other day I was sitting in my room, there was no noise, just quiet, and my mind went back to the way things were before my diagnosis. I thought about everything I've been through in such a short time and how quickly it all happened. It still blows my mind ya'll that I was diagnosed with breast cancer in the first place. It's my constant reminder of how quickly things can change. I also wondered how long the tumor had been in my body growing quietly, being such a secret. I wondered what city was I in when it started to form. Was it here in Atlanta? Was it in Kansas City when I worked there? I wondered what my life would be like if I had not discovered the tumor when I did. What would be my options?

I realize everyday that my life will never ever be like it was before discovering that I had breast cancer. I know that everyday I wake up I feel a little bit different than the day before, and I wonder how I will be once this is over -- there is no way you can go through something like this and not be changed forever. It's such a journey for sure, because it's not this quick in and out process -- it takes time and it makes you wait -- sit, and think. Maybe I never really did that before, but I certainly do now.

Cancer is definitely teaching me how to live.

JaQuitta!

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10/15

It's the beginning of a brand new week!!

Good Monday morning everybody.

I'm blessed and highly favored; I repeat that to myself daily.

I'm excited about today, this week; because it's the week I get to really EAT well.

My taste buds are back in full swing---THANK GOODNESS!

I was told that green tea helps to cut down on that awful taste affect that chemo has on your taste buds, so I plan to drink some everyday and during my next chemo session to see if that works. Lord, I hope so.

I had a really good weekend. I took myself to the movie on Friday to see Tyler Perry's "Why Did I Get Married" and it was just what I needed! Something to make me laugh and entertain me after the week I had. Thanks Mr. Perry! I think that movie is his BEST WORK!

Oddly enough, I'm looking forward to this week and ready for next week too. How can you be ready for both you ask?

This week because I know I will feel more like myself and enjoy the day--next week because it will be my third round of chemo and that will make me one step closer to my final chemo session... won't that be a blessing!

I was watching the Discovery Channel over the weekend and I saw the documentary based on the book Crazy Sexy Cancer Tips. The woman in her early 30's who was diagnosed with cancer on February 14th and after that show I saw the story of another woman in her early 30's who was diagnosed her name was Janice I think.

Anyway, their stories had me glued to the TV set because I identified with both women.

They were so open, honest, and raw about everything.

They cried, and Janice showed her bald head.

She talked about how she bought a wig and it was beautiful, but she never wore it.

She just rocked scarves, hats and beautiful jewelry. I wish I could do that.

Well, I actually do when I'm not working. I don't really wear the wig, it feels so much better without it and I love my head. Hee hee. I tell you, it always makes me feel better when I see women who are going through what I'm going through--the emotions, the highs, and lows.

I especially liked how the women were able to come out on the other side of the ordeal, each one changed for the better and their lives were enriched.

Their lives were actually better after the cancer diagnosis, both of the women got married. Janice had a baby, so you know seeing such positive things come out of something that's truly a challenge, gives me hope!

I'm smiling on the inside and out!

JaQuitta!

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10/12

It's Friday!!!!

I made it through what was a very challenging week emotionally.

My second round of chemo wasn't as easy as the first. I was much more tired the days after the chemo treatment, and seemed to be more pain after the shot the day following chemo. I guess I was in more pain physically and emotionally; so I had a good, good cry, and I held onto to my faith and my BIBLE!!!!

It's a shame too, because by the time I start feeling better, more like myself off the med's--it's time to do it all over again.

THIS IS NOT A CAKE WALK!!!!

Don't let anybody fool you, not even me!!!

Oh, and I forgot to tell you the other part of chemo that's less than spectacular....YOU GAIN WEIGHT!!!!!

Because of the kind of medication I have to take the day before chemo and several days after... IT MAKES YOU GAIN WEIGHT.

So, I've gained about 15 pounds----and it's NOT CUTE!!!!!!!!! I'm bloated. I can take about 3 bites of something and I'm full---but there's all this water and other stuff floating around in my body making me incredibly uncomfortable.

I'm not a tall woman, and I've always hovered around a certain weight--and clothes size 4 and 6's, some 8's (when I've been slacking off).

I have always been physically fit, active, I like to run, walk, aerobics, anything that gets my heart rate up and allows me to get rid of extra energy has been my thing ever since I can remember.

Now, I'm overweight, in my eyes.

It depresses me because my clothes don't fit properly, and I just refuse to buy larger sizes---so sweat suits are my favorite---and you can best believe when this is all over... THE WEIGHT IS THE FIRST THING THAT GOES.

I'm already on a mission in my mind and I know exactly how I'm going to do it… fish, and broccoli, no carbs (bread, rice, chocolate) , LOTS OF WATER, and doubling up on running... an hour in the morning... 30 mins at night. You watch me.. in 2 weeks I'm going to be back to my normal size if not smaller!!! Watch out now!

Here's another tidbit for you... the hair loss doesn't bother me.

I decided to just take control over the situation and take my hair off myself.

It was VERY empowering. I felt like I am woman, hear me roar!!!

And I actually like the shape of my head; it's much smaller than I thought it would be, but very very cute; shaped beautifully.

So, the hair thing isn't "a thing" anymore. It's shifted to the weight. Who knew?

But, I keep saying “It's temporary; tt's temporary.”

When this is over I'm going to be so fine, my errors are going to be correct..HA!!

I love it. Self motivation is my thing. Can you tell?

Anywho, have a good Friday and a FABULOUS weekend.

JaQuitta!

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10/9

Hey Everybody.

How are you? Me, I'm hanging in there -- this latest chemo treatment is harder than the first for me.

I feel more tired, and the shot that comes after the chemo is really, really affecting my knees. Last night they were hurting really badly, so I looked down at them and they were swollen -- really swollen! They kinda looked like small grapefruit attached to each knee -- not a good look. So, I took my meds and went off to lah-lah land.

My taste buds are all out of whack yet again. This is just really an uncomfortable experience, but I'm still happy about everything in my life. My Mother has been wonderful!! She keeps me laughing, and smiling, and we talk all the time about anything and nothing. I love that! The other day we watched marathons of Tyra Bank's show America's Next Top Model -- the season where Eva Pigford won. That was a great day!

Yesterday we watched "Dancing with the Stars" -- we LOVE that show. My mom and I guess what scores the stars will get before the judges do. We really get a kick out of that show too.

This experience has certainly shown me how to slow down. All I can do is rest, sleep, and get better.

Before I go, in case ya missed it…I rocked my new hair this past weekend. Did ya see it? I still like it a lot. It's going to take me a minute to get used to it, but I'm sure I will.

Okay, the medication is working, and my mom says I gotta go.

Until tomorrow. JaQuitta!

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Good Rainy Thursday Morning to you...

I don't know how long the rain is going to stick around today, but boy do we need it.

I had my second round of chemo yesterday! So thankful I have 2 under my belt now.

I was so happy and surprised to see my co-worker and dear, dear friend Tara Jones, and her baby girl Skylar who came to sit with me. Skylar had a baby shirt that read "I support JaQuitta's Journey" and on the back it read "and her boobies!" Cracked me up!!! How cute was that?!! It was such a welcomed surprise to see them both. My whole day was brighter because of them.

Tara and I have known each other for a very, very long time, since our old stomping days in Knoxville, TN where we met at WBIR-TV many, many moons ago. Boy do we have some stories. Heehee…Our lives have certainly changed since that time and for the better, but I cherish the memories of Knoxville.

So, as far as the chemo goes, it was much like the first time, although I will say when the nurse had to stick that needle in my arm it hurt much more this time around. They draw blood out of that vein each time I have to visit, and they administer the chemo in that vein as well. It was incredibly sore, so the nurse mentioned the next time we'll use another vein in that arm. I just need to make sure I put some fading gel, or cream where they're sticking me. The last thing I need is the appearance of track marks on my arm…not a good look for me.

Now, for the NOT SO FUN PART TODAY! I have to go back to the doctor’s office for that dreaded nuelasta shot. It's the one I've been telling you that's worst than the chemo alone. That shot is just not great, but I'm going to take a few Motrin or something beforehand to try and alleviate some of the pain that I know will be waiting for me around the corner and for several days... AIN'T NO JOKE!! I wanna tell ya.

I had my first little bit of nausea yesterday, but it was ever so slight…I felt it coming on so I ate some pretzels, crackers and drank some water and it was over in no time.

I'm thanking you for your viewer messages still. I continue to read them every single day. I read the newer ones, but then I will go back to the older ones that I've read over and over before. You keep me encouraged!! I will never be able to tell you just how much, but thank you are the best two words I can come up with at least for now.

Thanks again and keep me uplifted as I prepare for this shot…YUCK!

Much love ya'll.. JaQuitta!

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10/2

Good morning,

Boy! This hair shedding business is a trip! My hair is shedding at a more aggressive rate now, and in case you're wondering I'm NOT bald. I guess because I've always had a lot of hair---it's still hanging in there.

I did take charge of the situation last night by cutting it. I just whipped out the scissors and cut it straight across the back and sides. It's in a short bob that I just wet and brushed back; it's actually easier.

No fuss; no long time spent in the mirror making sure it looks just so, and seeing strands and strands of it fall out or on the floor. And ya know what? I still feel FABULOUS!!!!!!!!

I had to cut it or do something on my own. I needed to feel empowered, like I had control of the situation; the hair didn't have control of me and cutting it myself did that for me. I will at some point take it to the next level when the time comes.

I'm happy to tell you my scalp is not as sore as it once was. I sprayed some tingling conditioner on it and it seems to help tremendously. It was affecting my sleep because I could actually feel my scalp when I lay down. NOT a good feeling.

I'm getting set for chemo tomorrow. I ate an awesome breakfast this morning that my mother made. Lord knows my mother can throw down in the kitchen----grits, salmon patties, omelet and raisin bread with cheesecake cream cheese spread----man----doesn't that sound good? And it was good. I ate like a Fat Cat. I know it's probably going to be the last time in several days that I will be able to enjoy my food, so I'm taking full advantage.

I'm not really worried about tomorrow, what to expect or anything like that. I've been there done that.

I had one of my "breast" friends (Sisters By Choice-Support Group) Danielle email me this morning, her last chemo treatment is THURSDAY! YEAH!!! Danielle. I'm celebrating Danielle today for her strength, courage, and willingness to go the distance on this journey. She's awesome and has been such a welcome support to me.

I have been initiated into the breast cancer survivor sorority and it was a horrible hazing affair---and it wasn't a sorority I wanted to be a part of, but now that I'm here... I proudly wear my Sorority Jacket with "Survivor" written across the back. Danielle wears hers too and the countless women I have met and the ones I haven't.

I can't wait to tell you about my last chemo treatment. I can't wait. Tomorrow it will be two down, two more to go.

Love live life My friends.

JaQuitta!

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10/1

Hello My Awesome Support Team----

Well, It's happening ya'll. I thought it would possibly hold out until my third treatment -- My hair is shedding!!!

I noticed it on Friday I was brushing my hair and noticed more hair than usual in my brush. Then I began running my fingers through it and 4 to 5 strands would come out at a time. I was thinking that I didn't have enough moisture in my hair until it dawned on me...Oh, wow... the chemo and its effects.

So, I called up my "breast" friend Schanea and asked her if my suspicions correct. I had also noticed that before I even phoned her, my scalp was really really sensitive, down right sore -- that too is an indication of the effects of the chemo I learned later.

My scalp feels tight, almost like it's itchy but it's not itching. Or if you scratched your head in one spot extremely hard, and I mean really hard, it would become sore -- that's what my head feels like all over. I try to massage it with my fingertips, that offers some relief, but definitely not enough.

Today, my hair is shedding even more! So I think having the fullness of my hair on the anchor desk on Sunday was the last time it would be that way and in that style. I'm in the middle of trying to figure out what I'm going to do. Cut it in a shorter style... or just start wear the wig. I haven't figured it out yet, when I do I'll let ya know.

I will tell you that when I noticed my hair coming out. I had my crying breakdown, my cleansing cry, then I went straight to the website and began reading the viewer messages to me. Wow -- they really and truly made me feel sooo much better. I felt lifted, loved, and I felt your support cheering me on -- I knew I could do this.

Crying is sooo therapeutic, then the next day I was totally fine with it. I just had to quit putting my hands in my hair and pulling it out, but it was like I couldn't stop myself. Like I was in a trance or something. I was tripping!

All it took was running my hand through it and strands and strands of hair would fall. It was all over my bathroom floor. I was riding in my car with the sunroof back and hair was swirling around in the car -- so I closed the sunroof.

Even as I anchored Sunday -- I tried to barely touch my hair for fear of hair being everywhere. I've always had a lot of hair on my head, but this is all new.

My second chemo treatment is just days away. I'm ready!

As far as the hair, here's the bottom line for me. Since God is creating an all new JaQuitta -- why not shed the old? Why not make way for the improvement that's right around the corner? So I say...out with the old..and in with the ALL NEW!!!! THANK YOU GOD FOR YOUR GRACE!!!!!

JaQuitta!

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9/28

Happy Friday!

I neglected to write a Blog yesterday because my day was filled with appointments.

I'm quickly approaching my second chemo round.

I was telling another breast cancer survivor about how painful the shot was that I have to have the day after chemo to keep my white blood counts up. I'm am NOT looking forward to it at all. My "breast friend" mentioned that I should take Motrin or some kind of pain reliever the day of the shot, and then the day after. My oncologist mentioned that as well, so I'm going to definitely do that because that shot---- is the worst part of the chemo.

It's NOT the chemo, at least not so far, but the shot.

I also asked my oncologist if I could maybe NOT have the shot, skip that part.

She mentioned that wasn't an option, but that I could get another kind. I decided against that one because I would have to visit her office every day for four days after chemo to get a shot each day, and those four shots wouldn't guarantee that I wouldn't have any pain.

So, no way around it.

I'm anxious to see how I feel on my second trip to the chemo chair. I felt fine the first time, and I'm expecting to feel fine the second, but I do wonder if each treatment is different. I guess I will know for sure very soon.

I'm also wondering about my hair situation too. I was told by some breast cancer survivors that their hair began to shed after the first treatment, others told me after the second, and a really good college friend of mine who is also a breast cancer survivor mentioned it didn't happen to her until the third treatment.

I have 4 treatments, so it would be great if it didn't come out at all, but if it did after the third treatment I could handle that better. I guess because I'd know that I would have one more treatment to go and then I would be all done with the chemo, and my hair could begin growing back again.

We'll see what happens. I'm still trying to get my mind around that one.

Oh, by the way, I forgot to tell you about the V-Day event. It went very, very, very well!

I felt honored to be there, Jane Fonda was AMAZING! I also brought my work out tape that I have used for years; it's a step aerobics workout, along with an abdominal work out.

Jane Fonda was gracious enough to autograph it for me. We took a nice photo for me to always remember that special meeting.

I also met Emily Saliers from the Indigo Girls. Wow! Was she a really kind soul. I really like her. She mentioned the Indigo Girls were preparing to go on tour soon.

I realize so much now more than ever before that I cherish each and every moment of my life. Meeting someone, or having a conversation, or being among people who I believe are positive wonderful----down to earth good people.

I feel fortunate----EVERYDAY!!!!

Have a Good Weekend!

JaQuitta!

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9/26

Good Morning! How are you? I woke up feeling great.

I'm so thankful that I'm able to taste food, so I've been eating well all this week. This has been the first week where I actually taste food as it is no bitter bland taste at the end of it. My boyfriend and I went to an Italian restaurant last night and I ate like a fat cat. Normally, I can NEVER eat all my food, and I always have to have a "to go" box. This time I ate EVERYTHING, and beat him eating. He was so impressed and proud of me, but I must admit, by the time we got up to leave the restaurant I felt stuffed. So, the thoughtful, loving, and caring fella that he is----he suggested we take a walk, so we did, and that made all the difference.

I know I'm trying to savor every bite and remember every meal because next week it's chemo time yet again and I know my taste buds will be all out of whack---I don't really like that, but then that's when bread becomes my best friend. I'm ready to do it!!!

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